Sitting in my dark room, I wished to run away and hide,
Because wherever I went, these feelings stayed inside.
I felt the tears, well up in my swollen eyes,
Tried hard to contain them, because I no way wanted to cry.
I was tired staying there and living each day a lie,
And the only thing I wanted is, to close my eyes and die.
I could sense the pain I caused you, with every tear I shed.
I did plead with you so; do let me go instead.
I wish I could see you, before announced dead,
But facing you again, is something I would dread.
Let me ask for your pardon; as I know you’ll set me free,
It may seem ungrateful, but this world didn't suit me.
Still I hope I'm taken, to a fairly happy place,
Even if it exists though, is time for me to face.
I’ll cherish your selfless love, and miss the time we
shared,
It meant the life to me, to know that someone cared.
I watch you in guilt and sorrow, and confusion as to why
You never knew what I'm going through, while I felt I had to
die.
I put my faith in God, as I pray my pain will end,
And keep you in my memory, till I'm in your arms again.
